Sunday, December 27, 2015


No pictures of her
Just memories
Images you'll never see,

The warmth of her skin
Heat in her eyes
Kisses that I came to prize,

Her woman's charm
Her childlike glee
All that love is lost to me.

Sunday, December 20, 2015


No salvation,
No inspiration,
A heart's conflagration
A bleak celebration.

The more I learn
The less I feel
The more I know
The less I heal

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Lay my shade to rest
Upon no hallowed ground
And quiet the fire within my heart
With but the barest  sound,

Monday, November 23, 2015


I hear your voice
And yearn for more,
I see your smile
I so adore,

I hold you close
But must release,
And in that pause
My heart knows peace,

Your earnest wish
I have attended,
But truth be told
This heart's not mended.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

I thought I saw forever in your eyes
But it was just a moment in the sun,
Lovely and warm, deliciously shared
But gone when the day was done.

Wednesday, November 11, 2015


I know that you've had your say
And I feel I was in your way
But I miss you,

They say that the going gets rough
And you said love just wasn't enough
Still I miss you,

I want to honor your choice
But my heart has found its voice
And I miss you,

So our song remains unsung
And my teeth will meet my tongue
As I go on missing you.

Monday, November 9, 2015

Every night I dream anew,
Then time unravels
And I see you,

I hold you close to never part
Then I awaken
To a broken heart.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

With eyes wide open
I am loathe to see
My life entombed
By awful symmetry

Monday, November 2, 2015

Ars Moriendi

Leave the world a little brighter
Find your bliss and lose your fears,
Leave your friends a little wiser
And measure not by span of years.

Monday, October 12, 2015

Missing from my life,
Your absence always pains me
Like a phantom limb

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Ashes stain my hands and heart,
Blessed with all the insight I can stand,
Failure evolves into art,
This wedding guest, a sad and wiser man.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Paradigm Lost

Living is Loving
And Loving is Losing
So Living is Losing
But Life is no game,

Feeling is Falling
And Falling is Failing
So Feeling is Failing
But no one's to blame.

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Like a pressed flower
In the pages of my mind,
Memory of joy.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

You were right

Like a vessel full of blood and broken glass,
Cutting those nearby and staining the ground,
A drowning man sings no serenades,
He only gasps and grasps, and goes under.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Carry on

Strained back and broken heart,
Life cannot be lived in part,

Tearful eyes and tired feet,
Moving on the outlook's bleak,

For I tripped and then I fell,
Holding nothing left to sell,

Standing still a man apart
Strained back and broken heart.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

In my quiet hours I ponder
With a masochistic verve,
That I cut so now I bleed
So I get what I deserve.
Pricking your fingers amid the roses in the garden,
Hearts don't heal over time, they harden.

Lessons learned

Forgiveness is a lie
Crafted by the weak,
Filling up their foolish heads
With platitudes to speak,

Loving is a joke
Narcissistic flame,
Burning up your good intent
And killing you with shame,

Joy is like a knife
Cutting through a vein,
After all is said and done
You're filled with naught but pain.

All the lessons I have learned
Broken bridges I have burned.

Sunday, August 2, 2015


To learn what gods and monsters know
Contemplate the tree of woe,
The world will judge and it will show
As you feast upon your crow.

Thursday, July 30, 2015

It is good to know
Who is the scorpion,
Before you jump in.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015


All the things I left unsaid
Echo through my shadowed mind,
Pressure builds within my head
Love and hope are left behind,

Agent of my own demise
All my sins take me apart,
What is left to my surprise-
My diseased and broken heart.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015


Bruised up
Battered down
Broken again,
Some dreams shatter
Before they begin,

Friday, July 17, 2015


Am I fighting the good fight
Taking up worldly slack,
Or am I just another frog
With a scorpion upon my back?


Still in my despair
Bewildered by this turn
Loss has left me torn.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015


Diseased and broken
My heart skips time,
Our love becomes
A pantomime.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

With feeling

Bloody my fingers on the shards of my broken heart,
Bark my knees on your sins of omission,
When did baring our scars become foreplay?
My luster fades in your cool, calm eyes
Tell me you want me, once more...

Sunday, July 5, 2015

You know nothing, Brennan Gill.

Thursday, July 2, 2015


I'm sorry for the words I spoke 
And those I didn't say,
I'm sorry for each time I failed
To brighten up your day,

I'm sorry for each tear you shed
I counted every one,
I'm sorry that my soiled soul
Has left our love unsung,

I'm sorry I was not enough
To open up your heart,
I'm sorry that we tripped and fell
Before we got to start,

Drowning in my dark lament
Lessons learned are scars misspent.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

At your touch

Do you know
The thrill I feel?
Do you see
The smile I wear?
Do you feel
My pulse take flight?


Could we be lovers?
Should we be friends?
Will you still haunt me
After it ends?

Somehow it's ending
Never did start,
Sadly I never 
Could love just by part,

Diseased and broken
My heart skips time,
Self-esteem withers
Like fruit on the vine,

The failure is mine,
On that I will dwell,
Guilty of loving
Not wise, but too well.

The other shoe

Watching for the axe to swing
Looking for the hammer-fall,
Hoping for one last sweet breath
Running out of drive to stall,

Dying for a chance to live
Living for a dreadful stop
Circling that famous drain 
Waiting for the boot to drop.